Today's passage is Matthew20:29-34.
When two blind men heard that Jesus was passing by they shouted to him to have mercy on them. When the crowd rebuked them, they shouted even louder. When Jesus asked them what they wanted, they said their sight. He touched their eyes, they received their sight and they followed him.
Spiritual blindness has been one of my major characteristics.
I was blind to my first wife's alcoholism for fifteen years.
I was blind to my children's distress over their mother's behavior and could not help them when they came to me.
I was blind to the reason for always being short of money.
I was blind to the reason for failed promotions.
All these blindnesses because I was blind to the root cause of them in my pride which refused to accept I had an alcoholic wife.
I was blind to the adulteries I committed, pridefully bragging I had never committed adultery until the very last one, just before my first wife died.
I was blind to my mother's adultery that led to my parents' divorce.
I was blind to my father's long adulterous relationship after his divorce.
He lived with an undivorced woman for ten years.
I was blind to the folly and immorality of agreeing to have a child outside of marriage.
I was blind to the sexual immorality of my teenage years and early 20s.
I was blind to think I could live my life as I saw fit and not according to what the Lord wanted and what he had created me to do.
I was blind to the necessity of seeking God's will.
For three years I cried out in my blindness and wept a river of bitter salt tears.
At first I cried out for what I wanted--a fantasy life.
The only answer I got to that prayer was more suffering.
Finally I just cried out to God.
His answer was to send me to Korea.
For two years I wondered what I was doing here because it seemed as empty as my life in the YMCA in Vancouver.
Then I met my wife, Rick Warren's "A Purpose Driven Life", and Wooridle Church.
Those three were Jesus' hand touching my spirit and my mind.
With that touch I could see enough of my sins to begin confessing and repenting.
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Each repentance has led to more sight and more repentance.
It's still going on. To see is to follow Jesus.
Lord, have mercy on me, a sinner. Touch my heart and my sould that I might see more clearly and repent more truly. Take not your Holy Spirit from me but teach me your ways that I may walk more consistently the path you've given me.
