[Refusing to save me] Pastor Kim Jaehak

Numbers 20:22~29

Hello? I am Pastor Kim Jae-hak who serves the Washington Blessing Church in the US. Beloved church members, short people like me are called 'loser' in my neighborhood, and ugly people are called 'cheap.' And those who dont have money are called get off. But all three of these people are called 'Die.' I do QT regularly, and I think you are the main characters of 'get died' and hidden gems to interpret the incident that came to us and to restore the families by seeing my sins, repenting, and taking crosses with those words. My sins are recognition addictions, compliment addictions, and honor addictions. I had a bad year in the ministry after committing arrogance and evil deeds, and through a Washington pastor seminar in July last year, but my whole life was completely transformed into QT. Ive earned several degrees but the best degree in my life is a certificate from the TNINK Pastors Seminar. I received a lot of grace through Woorideul Semina, but the best part of it was visiting the Ranch communities. I decided to try this kind of communities in Washington. This is the end of the grace I received through it, and now I will meditate on the refusal to save me through the text.

First, it is to remember the words of God and live splendidly by keeping them even in the disastrous situation where my close family members reject me harshly.

When the Israelites arrived in Kades from Egypt through the wilderness, Moses sent a letter to King Edom asking him to pass through the kings boulevard. Edom knows everything about Israel and his cousin, their suffering and their exodus from Gods guidance and their wandering in the wilderness. But in a word, he not only refuses, but also threatens with a knife. Nevertheless, if Moses passes only on the main road and drinks water while passing by, I will pay for it all, so please let him pass again. But King Edom refuses to the end with a show of force. However, Moses remembers the words of Deuteronomy 2:4-5 at the time of Exodus 40 years ago that Edom told him not to fight and go back even if he didnt allow it. Its not my wishes and wishes, but I apply it as the other person wants, wishes, and wishes. How good would a life of faith be if I wanted, hoped, prayed, and went my way? But it never happens. This is because I hear the words of salvations, and my family will survive, the church and the next generation will survive, and this nation will survive. Therefore, its a blessing to be rejected.

Second, faith is to fulfill the word of Gods life by applying QTs, nurture, and bearing cross in a still-unending manner despite the disastrous situation of being constantly rejected.

Moses did well to God and the people of Israel who obeyed the word instead of applauding, Aaron goes back to his ancestors and says he cannot enter the land God gave to Israel. Every time the people committed a sin, they fell down before God and asked for forgiveness, but they said they could not enter Canaan, God punished Moses and Aaron for defying Gods word with feisty energy in the water of Meriba. Then he tells Moses to take Aaron and his son up the mountain and take off Aarons clothes and put them on his son Elleazar. On earth, they are rejected by their brothers Edom, and on the mountains by God. However, despite all this rejection and pain, Moses is fully obedient to the Lord God. Jesus also abandoned his heavenly aide and came to this land, was not welcomed and rejected, and was abandoned by God. This is because you had to fulfill the word of salvation given by God. Like Jesus, we must serve your body church and family and save our dying souls. We must listen to the words of redemption God gives us through QT every day.

I also suffered a severe rejection from God this time. One day, my wife with poor hearing suddenly got dizziness and was taken to the hospital, and She was in a sad situation where she couldnt go to bed and to the bathroom. However, she and I listened to Pastor Kim Yang-jaes sermon in a sick and confined environment, and she read almost all of Kim pastors books and did QT every day. It was such a painful time that my wife wrote a will, and in the process, she even confesses that 'my sins are bigger than the hardships I suffer, and I have to be in a hospital bed to repent with tears every day and dig treasure in my words.' There was one more incident, and my oldest sister, who was like my mother, died. When I was 4 years old, my mother died while giving birth to a younger brother, so my oldest sister played the role of mother and gave me a great commitment. However, during surgery after being diagnosed with uterine cancer in June this year, I learned that the cancer spread to the lungs and spread to the tailbone. My sister fought for four months and was held in the Lords arms just before the last pastoral seminar. For me, the journey was a pain of the sun, moon, and stars falling. I prayed in tears to give my sister another chance to fulfill her mission, but God refused.

Now, Elleassal, the third son of Aaron, saw his brothers Nadab and Abihu were killed for another fire, and also watched the case of the muntie of his father, Aunt Miriam, who served the golden calf. And not long ago, Aunt Miriam died, and today I watch my fathers death in front of my eyes. Elleassal suffers all the hurt and rejection, but buries Aaron, the father of the body, inherits the outer garment from his father and descends to the site of the ministry. And God makes him a great missionary as the high priest. I think Elleassals coat is on me and you today. It is the ministry of words through QTin, and I believe that this ministry will shine brilliantly and flow from the river into the sea. And I want you to remember that youre the one to carry out this mission. I hope you believe in the Lord who wipes away all the tears you shed because of the salvation of your soul.